Live To Compete

I'm back

If you don't know who I am, I'm a performance engineer at Silares with some of my closest friends. This blog will be mostly a dump of technical insights of my work there I can share that doesn't make our dedicated blog there, interesting ideas I have sitting around, some of my personal thoughts on building a truly generational team with institutional partners, and more. Don't expect any of this to be proofread, edited or anything else. Headings will break apart thoughts and I might sit down for some period of time and context switch 40 times just because my brain doesn't work the way others do, maybe that's just the problem with me. My goal isn't to make some compelling fucking story for you but just to speak my mind so I don't go out and punch someone on the street when I'm pissed or help myself better understand something I've been trying to get down.

I'm entirely self interested, and I really don't give a fuck.

Obsession

I've become a bit obsessed with this idea that the only barrier between myself and anyone else is my willingness to compete. While there is no prize to perfection, the exhilarating rush of knowing an advantage you have over a market participant is unlike any other dopamine rush I've felt. To win so indomitably that no one would ever challenge you and people fear you crossing their path. This is definitely super fucking cringe but I swear I can't stop thinking about this idea that everywhere around me I smell blood and weakness amongst my peers. So much opportunity to just completely dominate. I hope they fear me.

I live to compete and I can't stop laughing at the competition.